Cost Benefit Analysis

Yesterday was a bittersweet day for me; it was my official last day of work.  I am now officially a stay-at-home-mom.  I will miss the people I work with and even miss working, but I am not superwoman and with the care that Kai needs, I cannot do it all.  Work was originally a reprieve--a way to get out of the house, but it has become an additional stressor this last week.  I was supposed to work all week and because of Kai's PICU visit, I was unable to work Monday and Tuesday.  Wednesday was end of the month, and the company updates their systems at that time, so I couldn't work.  Thursday was another appointment up at Primary Childrens, which was only supposed to have lasted an hour but I was there for over two and a half hours.  Because of that, I hit traffic on the way home from Salt Lake and ended up being two hours late for work.  The added stress that work creates is just not enough to justify working.

Additionally, the person that we have had watching Zuri and Kai while I work won't be available for much longer.  We knew she would only be a temporary fix while I put in my last two weeks.  I was going to work a regular shift on Fridays from 8-5, since J doesn't work Fridays, but when we weighed all the pros and cons, working just didn't come out on top.  We can't just have a regular person watch Kai because they have to be trained on how to care for him and be willing to care for a child with such needs.

As the work day ended yesterday, my boss came up to me and told me that I have been an excellent employee and that if I ever need a job again to call him.  Because of the work that I have been doing, they are going to implement a night shift.  It was so nice to hear how valued I am to the company.  I have been grateful for my chance to work there, especially since they have been willing to take me back twice now (the first time after we got back from Georgia, the second time after Kai was born).


On the other hand, I am excited to be able to be home with my little ones.  While I enjoy working, I have felt the weight of me being away from home.  It has been hard to be away from Zuri these last two years.  I will enjoy being home again.  Zuri is getting older and will start preschool next year.  How fast time flies.